Kinda stress since last week. Everything come together that makes me feel that is time the eldest child had to be really thoughtful and strong already. No more fooling around as a rebellious girl anymore.
Staring at the accounts and I feel is time to contribute something back to my family. The mess is really a mess. Missing statements, not tally figures and outdated ledgers. Mom is old. Beside the energy that she remains for her daily-must-do-activity (scolding), she has got less energy anymore.
Dad is the one making me feel the pain at most. His spinal has some cracks due to few times of falls over the past few years. He had endure the pain himself over the years, just to save the hassles asking the others to fetch us back from school. Of course, the money which he hates dealing with the insurance company. Few days ago the pain attack suddenly, causing him to have trouble even when he just wants to stand up. Brought him to the doctor today. He had been our support all these years. But when we wanted to take care of him now, he remains acting his best to show us that he is okay, and no worries about him.
He asked me to send him to the barber this evening. I agreed and asked him to give me 15 minutes for a shower. When I am done, he has gone to the barber him self. He didn’t want to trouble me. T.T
Besides, his memory is getting worst. One day, he may had fetch my brother home in the afternoon and still go to the school in the evening, thinking that my bro is not back yet.
All I want now, is that he will be as healthy as last time before I am back to UK. Being strong, is my most important factor for me at this moment. I can’t bear the consequences alone.
My dad is a good person. Guan ni ma bless him pls.
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