"在路上

我

跌得心甘

伤得情愿

结果

我被绊倒了

是谁???

是我被我自己绊倒了

跌得很伤?

应该说

跌得不轻

好心人陆陆续续地出现

扶起我"

Quoting from one of my bro's friend. I find it writing what's in my mind. It mirrors out what happened to me!! When pple are sad, they will start blaming others for failing them. The fact is, you failed you self. You failed others.
You failed people who really cares and give a damn about you.
You fell down! people go and grab you and keeps telling you to take the other route.
You said u r not going to give up cuz u know there will be a treasure in front.
People told you that that isn't any treasure in front.
You replied , no there is, the road isn't seems too bad.
People advice you that that's the nature of the path.
You replied, go away, I don't need ur advice.
Leaving people behind, upset over what you are doing.

Persistence, is good sometimes. However it depends on what and when you persist on. Else, you will continue being an idiot who never learn how to love your self. Loving others, will not bring you more love. This is the real world. So stop living in your own fantasy world miss lee. Enough..

its been long!

Ahh.. when is the last time i blog here.. -.= long time ago.
WARNING! this is not an emo post!!
Tonight i suddenly miss all important person for me again..
I thought i will be strong this time...
But knowing that I do not have a confirmation on whether i will be going back soon makes me feel insecure. I had never miss them so much like i do tonight.
Manage to hold back my super precious tears finally..~~

However, 20 minutes ago.. I get to find a stack of cards which some i bring frm msia and some i received when i'm in uk. Not to forget, together with a diary. A diary full with many words of encouragement for my self whenever i am sad.

Great=.= some smart ass read all the cards and started to feel ahhhh.. touched by the memoriess.. very very nice and precious memories. Then this smart ass stare at the diary=.= curious on what had she wrote for her self last time.. to be precise, from 2 years ago.

So, this smart ass finally went and tear of the super strong plaster on the surface of her heart and smack it on the wound by reading every page of it =.= boooh!! great... she feel the pain=.= finally.. the smart ass drop a few drop of super holy water and now the smart ass couldnt sleep.. wahhhhhhhh!! not emo she suddenly shouted.. is just SENTIMENTAL.. =.= she know.. she will be strong.. even though she is not. she will learn.. learn while she keeps falling and get all the dirt and hurts all over her body.

Be strong, my self. I will support u always.

pc lee

runaway..

Many people choose to runaway when they faced problems.

Runaway might not be the best way to resolve problems.

But it is definitely a good pain killer and brain washing tool.

Uk is the best place for me to hide my self.

Without a concrete heart is the reason I keep coming back.

Coming back to be stab again and again.

Year after year..

I will be running away again.. 2 weeks , from now.

-end-

pc

Stress and pain in heart

Kinda stress since last week. Everything come together that makes me feel that is time the eldest child had to be really thoughtful and strong already. No more fooling around as a rebellious girl anymore.

Staring at the accounts and I feel is time to contribute something back to my family. The mess is really a mess. Missing statements, not tally figures and outdated ledgers. Mom is old. Beside the energy that she remains for her daily-must-do-activity (scolding), she has got less energy anymore.

Dad is the one making me feel the pain at most. His spinal has some cracks due to few times of falls over the past few years. He had endure the pain himself over the years, just to save the hassles asking the others to fetch us back from school. Of course, the money which he hates dealing with the insurance company. Few days ago the pain attack suddenly, causing him to have trouble even when he just wants to stand up. Brought him to the doctor today. He had been our support all these years. But when we wanted to take care of him now, he remains acting his best to show us that he is okay, and no worries about him.

He asked me to send him to the barber this evening. I agreed and asked him to give me 15 minutes for a shower. When I am done, he has gone to the barber him self. He didn’t want to trouble me. T.T

Besides, his memory is getting worst. One day, he may had fetch my brother home in the afternoon and still go to the school in the evening, thinking that my bro is not back yet.

All I want now, is that he will be as healthy as last time before I am back to UK. Being strong, is my most important factor for me at this moment. I can’t bear the consequences alone.

My dad is a good person. Guan ni ma bless him pls.

-pc-

FARK

shoot!!!!! how many times does this gonna happen? every year????? shoot gao gao man! Enuf! I’m like not even a dog..

back for almost 2 weeks alrd. Life’s good. ^^

going ikea tomorrow. kinda excited. in my mind ikea in msia is much bigger than the one in UK. Of coz, the one in UK is often lonely. Yea XD i went ikea alone for 3 times in UK. wakakaka.. no idea why i go ikea always although i know i hv nothing to buy at all. ^^ maybe the things inside makes me feel the warmth of a HOME. lol..

Anyway. Ikea, I am coming. Ikano as well.

nitez to the world.

alright after a long time after the previous post.. what i wanna say is.. i am really.. lost. not an emo post arr… this is normal post.

did not sleep in the plane for the past ‘N’ hours and now, after a short sleep of 3 hours.. i am still awake… sickening.

woke up n cried suddenly.. swtening, for no reason summore. Just feel like weird. passing by certain place in my own room will suddenly makes me feel the previous ‘pain’?? really don’t understand what’s going on actually. zz dats y i say, i am lost.=.= hv you guys ever had these kind of feelings? i don’t really know how to describe it but is like, u feel unhappy n scared of you dont know what n sad, for no reason.=.= n cant find the reason as well.. sweat.

whats going on??!!

I can’t shit, i got constipation these few days. It makes me feel I am a piece of shit. Don’t get near to shit then. Shit brings you ntg but shit.

I don’t even dare too look back my previous posts. After recalling what happened previously, I seriously feel that I am actually useless, and bad person.

I actually move more than 100 post about a year ago, to another address. It happens that I visit it today and i feel that i’m  sick. hoho.. watever. Like pple say, I never learn. Maybe I learn, but very slow.

Anyway, sorry to anyone if I ever say something harsh or did something meaningless.

Oh yea.. finish the exam ages ago. My routine –> wake, eat, bath, paperwork , paperwork, paperwork, eat, sleep, game, game, paperwork, sleep. swt=.-lll  lolzz..

Everyone is leaving soon! Gonna miss them loads.

pc

What a weird feel

I am surrounded by many friends , making ba zang today. Laughed a lot. But I at the same time I am missing my besties a lot. Really lot. At moments I have this random thoughts to go back immediately. I really misses them so much. It’s been very long since I last sat together and laugh with them. Everyone has got their hectic life.

The feel of insecurity further attack my mind when I realise that another buddy of mine is going to Australia and I didn’t even manage to meet her before she go. I understands that life has got many people entering in every different phase. But at this phase, doubtless they are very important people for me besides my family, as I always agree with one quote I once read in a book. “ Family are those chosen by God, but Friends are family members that you choose.”

- sometimes, these feeling of missing your dearest people drags you down even you are enjoying your day with a day long laughter, how much I wish to be laughing together with them at this moment. I miss you guys. Post exam aren’t perfect, at all in UK. -

-pc lee-

God Bless Me

suddenly i got sudden fever * , loss of appetide *, lao sai *, sneezing*.

* = few symptoms of swine flu=.=

>< no!! Ok.. i promise i will sleep properly, drink water, eat vitamin c and take care of my self.. T.T dun let me get that pls.. pls.. omitofo..

T.T

Random..

忽然间有一个想法。。就是，把我的好朋友们的性格写在这里。。（无聊没事做的关系）

我的好朋友们很 ：

懂得迁就和包容我。

容易满足，常因为小小事情而非常快乐。

白痴。

安静。

会笑。

木头。

欠扁。

喜欢偷袭我。

有义气。

好。

傻傻的。

开心。

喜欢配合我的冷笑话。（令我安静的方法）

喜欢叫我用e-mail联络她。=.-lll

放我飞机。。

可爱。

老人家。

我的好朋友们，真的很好很好很好。

Shit happens

ok people.. sorry sorry sorry everyone.. I don’t even know what’s going on. I will learn how to keep my mouth shut always to prevent unnecessary misunderstandings. ALWAYS SHUT.

6,782,536,522

A figure? A number? A secret code , or a wonder?

I find it a wonder. That’s the latest world population updated on 27 of May 2009. Will you imagine how many people is there? And we are only one tiny little from there. What i am trying to say is, for people to have a chance to meet each other, is as low as 1 /6,782,536,521.

人与人之间相遇的机会低于1/ 6,782,536,521。对，这个几率还低过中萬子票。昨天，我在同一条路上，两次遇见同一个人。但是我们不认识， 也不说话。很可惜吧，难得的机会儿度遇上同个人，但是却不认识。所以，想一想，我们身边的朋友们，还有家人，他们比萬子票还要难得。所以，要好好珍惜他们。

Trans: the chances of people meeting each other is as low as 1 /6,782,536,521. yes, is lower than striking a lotto. I met a guy twice yesterday on the same path. But I don’t know him. We didn’t talk. Wasted isn’t it? For such a chance to met someone , but we did not know each other. Therefore, think about it. The friends and family around us, they are actually more valuable than a lotto. Thus, they must be appreciated.

很开心能够遇见你们。谢谢。^^

-lpc-

我干！！！！！

如果我有一把干炮抢，我一定不会自己去干你！！！！因为那会令我失身份！！ 但是，你放心，我一定会叫人把你搞得乱七八糟。。

这应该是我活到今天说过最毒的话！！ 但是我懒得鸟你！！操你妈的！！ 我干！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

Fuck you !!! BITCH!!!

Tough Decision

In life we had to make decision always. After a long time struggling between my beloved room and a house with a person that I cannot trust at all, I’ve finally decided to move if they could not give me a best solution.

Hse 87 ain’t that bad afterall, if everyone is gone and those remaining is me n the guy who rarely cook, the kitchen will be fine. The toilet can be washed. The house can be maintain. The trade off is , either work hard to maintain the house in other place, or work harder to protect my self from uncertain threats.

Is a hard decision though. But I am not that kind till the extend where I allow my self to be a slave to a person that I personally know I am not willing to . Expecting me to cook or do her chore? Impossible. I hate. Really hate, from the bottom of my heart. Hey girl, if you are reading this, I just wish to tell you , the creepiest part is, I couldn’t believe the little tricks in between that you make to create these much of misunderstandings between me n the person you don’t like. And it seems like a perfect plan from the beginning.  Don’t ask me why I choose to believe what others said. I am not believing anyone. You people can continue playing mental game with each other, but please, leave me alone. I am staying away from everyone. I would rather be a nerd rotten at home. Being alone is not that bad after all.

-pc , lee-

加油！加油！we can do it!

笑紮博，你不要天天stress到不懂那一个国家去！晚上睡觉就睡觉，十次有一半的时间你都会忽然间杀出来说你还没“成功睡着”-。=ll 然后，成功睡着后也很成功的骗我=。= 7 am, 8am, 9am, 10am, 11am.

LoL, anyway, hang on there! We’re gonna graduate jor!! That square square de cap will be on our head soon~!!

So, everybody! Everyone who are taking exams now. Lets work it out~!! yo!! Good Luck~! ^^

-lpc-

小小感动- a Little touched.

Sprain my left foot few days ago before going to Uni for exam.

It’s kinda funny actually. As I sprained my foot, I couldn’t walk to the uni, so I hv taken a bus. This is the first time I feel my self like a disabled person cuz it actually makes me takes a long time to go down from the bus. =.-ll. What makes me feel funny is that there are many people, might be thinking that I either break my bones or smtg. They are like so patient, following behind me even after I am off the bus! LoL. Well that’s a good thing. XD

Then, after exam, I eventually realise that my fridge is out of food. So, bringing the massive idiot pain together, I asked Sprina to accompany me to have my brunch at Nandos. (and the process start all over again, going into the bus so slowly, going down from the bus super slow.) After ‘landing’ from the bus safely, I walk at a speed of 0.5km/hour =.= usually, we took like 5 mins to walk from bus stop to Nandos. But that day, we took like.. approx 20 mins=.=

Back home- told CY about these and about the stuff that my fridge is like so pathetic.

2nd day- We had a group discussion on DBK. Suddenly, CY appear from no where    and her 1st sentence already give me a shock.

CY: “ The veggie I alrd put it in the fridge.”

PC: “ " (shocked – walked out)

CY: “ and KFC up there ur room.”

PC: “ " (continue stunt)

CY: “ ok la.. you all cont discuss.. I go back 1st”

Byezzz..

After a while, MSN.

CY: “ oh, forget to tell you, the chicken is in the frozer.”

Me: “   (touched)

She actually did my groceries for me=.= scares+ shocked + lil touched. Thanks a lot!!! Tho you keep on saying that u just do it cuz u did ur groceries as well. But is still, I don’t know, maybe I’m too sentimental=.= but really, thanks a lot. ^^

Also! Thanks for the owner of this emoticon—> ah cow a.k.a steak to bring me the medicine despite the rain. >< Thanks thanks.

 

-pc lee-

友情是。。。。彩虹~！！ ^^

I am suppose to be doing my OA revision. End up=.= reading comics introduced by yj last time. Then i saw this. quite interesting. ngiak ngiak ngiak. 

Link : http://tini.motorlove.com.tw/ 

Friendship is like ..................

Comic : http://www.wretch.cc/blog/tutugo/20562047

Friends can be...................

In fact sometimes friends can be more understanding than anyone else. ^.^

Al-light, lim bieh wanna go sleep d=.= wasted a whole day playing that idiot tetris and comic-ing. T.T

Good Luck everybody~

Can’t wait to go back instead of doing these papers

Lately there’re loads of shits happen to me. one of it would be the ‘bombastic’ result i got for my double credit assign. Very sad case. Many had said that the tutor had a bad impression to asians( they find out through student id as msians hv diff id with local peeps) they said so, cuz she gave a comment one the 1st sentence in my 1st page of review paper. she gave the following comment:

“Your grammar in poor till the extend where i cant understand what are you trying to say.”

1st sentence. imagine. Never in my life i did an assignment, i have these kind of comments before. Ironic. I thought of appealing. But think again, no point. sigh.

Studyin n studyin now. Hope to score in every paper i can. Tired. Why I am in such situation today. Where I am suppose to be attending culinary classes happily. Well, the only thing that I am pleased is few friends that i can overcome all these together. But the only thing is far away.. lol..

Nah, watever it will be, it will be over in 2 weeks time. Good luck to all of us!

-pc lee-

April - May

Realise something. Every year this time, there will be many people started to have low spirit in good term. In short, emo.  Wonder why though. Pass by many blogs and realise it.

A : I wanna be happy.

B: Just let me die.

C: Shit. I cry.

and it goes on.

Of course, I am not better either. Hahaahahaha..

But at least I did hahahahaha here. >.^ Life isn’t that bad after all. I see more flowers when i look away. ^^

 

-pc-

Loving me campaign.

lol.. yeap. This is the 2nd time I tell my self ok i will sayang you (myself) more a bit bit.

I will try hard. Enough of self destruction actions.

Anyway, saw a nice back this  morning while I am walking to Uni.

CY laugh at me cuz I’ve said the following statement.

“Nice to lean, nice to sleep, nice to cry on, nice to beat.”

I mean it. hahhhaah.. is true wert. Just the fact that I dunno whether he is a gay or a straight.

Cheers.

-pc-

Fastest way to prepare to work in the morning. ( 5 min) funny!

This is just too hillarious. Thanks to CY.

Good one!!

Rainbow after the rain

I saw a huge rainbow today. ^^

Really happy about it.

Somehow, every time i saw rainbow, my day is being cheered.

If this were coincidence, I would say thanks to the rainbow to appear every time I’m sad. ^^

Rainbow appears to add some meanings in the life which happens to be black and white.

I’m glad that today, I saw another rainbow.

 

-pclee-

have you ever…

Have you ever feel bored till the extend where you started to search your own name through google search??

I tried it today. Facinating. Yet dumb. The most result i saw for pay chee, is the following:

1) Tadika pay chee

2) Sekolah Rendah Kebangsaan Cina, Pay Chee (Tampin)

3) Sekolah Menengah Pay Chee, (Melaka)

Im like=.=

What is that=.= sweat ahhhhhhhhhh…

Anyway.. I feel damn.. bored today.. /.\

Updates

Went London last Sunday. Few funny and comparative pictures to share.

This shop sells Malaysian and Singapore food. But look at the name. The boss must be a lamer=.= (kiasu = takut kalah) We’re like.. sweat =.=lll

And then , lets compare the price with Malaysia.

If you will to convert it. One ice kacang cost you RM30. Whereas in Malaysia, RM1 you can still get back some change. =.=

Then, look at the otak otak=.= is actually 4 pounds 90 pence. To be precise, RM24 for 2 pieces of otak otak.. =.=

In Msia, its RM 0.40 (look below) for 1 piece. In Short, 10 pence for 2 pieces.

Continue – Saw the price for rambutan?? 22.5 pounds per kg. In msia, when you went pasar malam, you will hear people shouting, Mari mari, 3 ringgit se kilo 3 ringgit sekilo=.= and no one will go n buy it cuz is too expensive. Here, a kilo cost you RM120.=.=

And note : they wrote, class 1 rambutan, but look into the picture. These kind of rambutan will usually be thrown aside on the road=.=

Yes.. there are more shocking stuff here.. lol.. Im hungry.. i wanna go back.. =.=

Okay.. I admit I am emo today. Just today.

Flash back the times we had together. Despite studying in diff college, I never feel the hassles travelling around from taking a cab when I have no car to driving to Monash, just for a lunch. Just to meet you both. Never a word of grumble. However, thinking back today, why I am the one travelling around? Did you guys just realize that you both never visit me in Taylors? When I am all alone in that freggin lonely place.

One year over. One in Aussie. One in PJ. Whenever you call from Aussie, besides telling me guys. What else you will tell me? Despite the fact that I misses you so much. For PJ, the 1st time I took a bus. A bus to a place where I don’t even know where is that. Skipping classes just to chase to give you a lovely birthday wishes and present. Sorry for me to have such a ‘surprise’ when you are having lunch with your boy and friends. I waited for 3 hours. And I saw you for 3 minutes.

I did not request for any returns, as long as you guys are happy. That’s my main concern. Then why grumble here today? After so long?? Cuz I realize, no matter how much I misses you guys here. A lot. Everyday. Regret that I could not celebrate your birthday this year that you said your birthday is so different this year. But the problem is… I never hear from you since i came UK, besides the times when I smsed you. Not even a notice whether you have received my card. Leaving me here, telling my self there must  be some problem with the post man. But hearing from someone else that you have received the card. And I didn’t even know you are going to continue your studies in Aus.

I am grumbling here today. Cuz I misses you both. But never say it out. The next time we 4 can meet , is N years later. I am tired to take the initiative to keep the conversation on. Did you guys realize.. how long we did not have a proper pillow talk?

Perhaps I demand too much. Just some words of my own. Nothing much.

Tears means nothing......Smile either

I will try my best to be a good friend. Not making anyone angry. Sorry for my shallow words.

Dear diary( or shud I name it blogy) I am tired. Why the word constant exist when it hardly happen..........................................

人字容易，做人难。

说话的技巧。。。也很难。。

Upside down, Inside out

It’s 6.30am at UK now, and I’m awake, blogging.

Recently, most of the things are not on the right track.

I am out of motivation in doing anything. Not even talking.

Reasons: Unknown. Probably i misses those in the other side of the earth a lot lately. I really do.

Anyway, same old words, life goes on. Despite the fact that I am not happy with many things. Not happy with wallet being stole, not happy with people showing off, not happy with people’s irony and humiliations, not happy with my housemates, not happy with this and that, but who cares right? There are worse times. =) cheers.

What talking me? I don’t know. Lol. Okay, forget about sad case. Lets see, happy things? Erm, I still get to talk to those in the other side, I can still grumble a little to my buddies, I can still watch the sun rise, I received a brand new wallet from friends in Bristol ( Special thanks to people from 660 and the neighbour opposite 660), I received a monkey toy from 660 middle room, I received a brand new watch and toys from Msia ^^ , and so on.

So, it balance up i guess. But i really wanted to hang out with my own ‘informal group’. Being a parasite in other people’s group isn’t fun. Every night I misses my cousin and my besties so much. Hoping that we can study and fooling around together. (“,) anyway.. I believe morally we are doing it. supporting each other. ^^

Si lang hoor has been complaining bout his account studies bla bla bla now. U can do it bro. ^^

Being able to chat with u guys every day really cheers me up. Thanks. =)

-lpc-

This entry is an unknown

I blog to express my feelings.

I blog because I feel that I wanna blog.

I blog whenever I feel sad.

But sad is not emo.

I blog because I am pissed!!!!!

Faker Faker Fakersssssssss around!!!!!

yucksss.. puik.. curse u.. puik puik puik…

77  many seventy seven..

Where are all my lucksss????????? grrrrhhhhh…

Wanna cry d larhhhh! sienzzz fuck…

to all the xiu yan.. these are for u.. hekkkkk

“打你个小人头，等你成事冇出头”；“打你个小人手，到你有钱唔识收”；“打你个小人肚，等你日日俾人告，厄运行到老”；打你个小人喉，等你呼吸唔畅顺，肺痨兼中风”

omitofo.. god bless u.. .\,/.

Where is all my luck? sighhhh

Supposingly, after finishing all my assignments, I should be happy.

Throwing a party in my house should not be a chaos for me. But what happen is, among us, there is this some bitch who stole my wallet and my coins.

As a friends, should it be this way? Don't she feel ashamed ? I now feel damn difficult to face her. In fact, don't even wanna see her face. This side, she is borrowing money everywhere, or maybe, even stole my money, and there, she is buying branded stuff. Two big bad it seems. At this moment I just feel like cursing her.

Money is one thing. Memories is another thing. My wallet is a gift I gave my self to encourage my self from living alone in this strange place. Inside the wallet there are many sticker pics that I love the most. There is a picture of me and my besties. There are few prayer things that I need to accompany me every night . There is my student id. There are loads of memories. But just because of money, you rip everything from me. Not even leaving my coins alone.

You say you are sad that I did that to you. Well I did checked everyone. You say friends need trust. You make me bitten by guilt at that moment. But do you feel the shame in you??? Is this what you parents teach you? To be a thief? You used to asked me to give you a pair of keys of my room. I am glad that I did not do so.

Now, I am asking my self, should I move out from this house since you are coming in next year. At the same time, I am asking my self, why must I do so? I am not the one who did the wrong thing. From the bottom of my heart, at this moment, I really hate you like how I hate pei wen.  This is my space, a place for me to shout out my feelings. No point from lying to you. YES, I SUSPECT YOU. or perhaps, with all the current evidences I have, I AM SURE YOU ARE THE ONE!!!

If you are reading this, do you remember you asked me just let you know if I need help. YES. PLEASE RETURN MY WALLET AND MONEY TO ME!!!!!!!!!! YOU BITCH. Or maybe, you can take that fucking money, just give me back my wallet full with memories! I do not care who you wanna complain your "sadness" to , you wanna ask you super rich dad to kill me or you dear boy friend to do whatever, I DONT GIVE A DAMN. This is the first time I feel I am so unlucky to have a friend.

Is not about money you know, is about how you treat your friend. Is about how you lie to your friends. Is about how you betray me. I really don't feel like seeing you anymore. I do not have any evidence. Therefore I can't confront these to you face to face. You win. Are you happy with your branded stuffs? If you are, congrats. As you are no longer been qualified as a human. U are insane and worse than a beast. When you start spending with other people's money, think of how hard people's parents earn the money. Unlike construction, they rip money from bribery and innocent poor peeps who pay for the taxes and expecting a good quality buildings, not tofu buildings who ripped of thousands of life when there are disasters. We have hard earn money, not easy money. Use your brain if you have one.

DISSAPOINTED.  and I really hate being alone. I wanna go home. /.\

无聊透顶

在英国前三个月， 非常开心。。因为大家都不了解对方。。
没有什么禁忌，也不会因为小事发脾气。。
日子旧了。。接触多了。。自然而然会发现彼此的缺点。。
真正的朋友，就会慢慢的包容你。。这样的朋友。。就会变成好朋友。。。但是人都会有一些底线。。一些人，她们所做的事很难理解。。慢慢的， 就会变成A和B 心里的一根刺。

三个月后我回家一个月。。这段时间。。我真的不上不下。。
回到去。。搭不上话题。。也没什么自由。。开心到有限。。最开心的，也只有刚
到的那几天。。

又在回到英国的时候。。又在完全搭不上话题。。真的是完完全全听不懂。。也不会有人会解释那到底是什么一回事。。感觉很瞎。。很蠢。。然后。。慢慢的。。我完全没有想要和一群人在一起的感觉。。因为。。会觉得。。有意思吗。。最难顶的是，不知是我多心了，我的问题， 还是本来就这样。。总会觉得，当我和一些人比较多话，比较投机的时候，一定会有人不开心。。好像怕他的好朋友会被抢走似的。。事后还要讲一些莫明其妙，话里还有话的东西。。 让我觉得。。和人相处也要担心这样多。。我宁愿谁都不讲。。呆在家里算了。就这样。。我被人说我自闭，EMO， 我都懒得理。。毕竟。。我出去也要顾忌， 没意思。。反正我知道我的好朋友是谁，谁了解我，谁不了解我就行了。。现在。。每次要出去时。。都必须是我超开心的一天。。因为至少那天我有力气去装傻。。扮白痴。。放心。。我没那么缺德，去霸人家的好朋友，少给我来那套。。

英国日子PART TWO ---> 大便般的生活。 就当是我 - 李珮琪的个人问题，不必争论。因为这篇POST只是让我发泄而已。。毕竟这是我的地盘，谁要对号入座，谁要开始编别的故事。。慢慢来。。我没时间鸟.

END

A Lame Lame story copied from my bro's blog -_=ll (a real sweat one)

这是一个超悲惨的爱情故事...

这个悲惨的爱情故事呢是废中又带来一点冷的...
故事是这样子的...
红豆和绿豆是个非常登对的情侣...
它们再一起的时间已有两三年了...
它们在这两三年中，每一天都过这快快乐乐的日子...
可是，有一天花心的红豆看见一粒比绿豆漂亮的豆...
结果，红豆就迷上了那粒漂亮的豆了...
结果呢，红豆便和绿豆分手了...
选择和那粒漂亮的豆再一起...
绿豆感到非常伤心，哭足了三天三夜...
哭了三天三夜的绿豆在第四天终于不哭了......
因为.....它...发芽了....
~结束~

Blog in Coma

Yes yes, the blog has long been leave aside=.= this is due to the post dissertation syndrome. After writing so many words and you just don't feel like writing any. XD

Anyway, after handling in that dissertation, I've been sleeping and eating and laughing and enjoying. Then, after this, I'm gonna start on the next assign due =.= sighh..

Anyway.. besides sleeping eating laughing enjoying, I have addicted to something more horrible. Online SHOPPING=.= despite the fact that I've been staying at home so that I can "save" money, but the cruel fact is that I've been haunt by some 3rd party call, e-bay=.=

I've been buying loooooooadssss of stuff=.= from small stuff like mp3 till big things like wallet and then it goes to weird stuff like personal security alarms and army use glow ring=.-

oh yea.. I got my self an i pod shuffle generation 3. ^^ and received a parcel from a nanny. Love the feeling of receiving letters of parcels. But not bills -.=ll

Anyway, there will soon, be more parcels coming to my house =.- bet my housemates will get a shock. ngiak ngiakssss

Everyone in Msia, take care and miss you guys loads. ^^ Everyone in UK, experiment shows that staying at home being an anti-social person is very good. Can avoid many unnecessary event. XD

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T.T these assignments are driving me crazy...=.= ll [britney's you drive me crazy is running me my head -_-ll]

I wanna enjoy the lazy cosy days T.T can I? rhetoric -nya... ==

helpless=.= fiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.......

New Start

Hopefully my days will be like my new template.

Wish that I will have my own style.

不想再被人牵着鼻子走。。。

Sent a postcard to my self again. Telling my self not to be sad anymore.

I am really tired of compromising.

Must learn how to see things that I wanted to see, and filter off things I saw that I don't wish to see.

Life will then be better off.

Life goes on. Cheers to my self.

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The Chicken Rice Shop~~~ prorrrpp proopp prorrrp prroop~~~

Got the idea from sk these few days.. ngiahjahaha.. cuz her pm is like.. who want nasi lemak this saturday??? (13 pack) <-- and the number keeps increasing.

Is a guy selling nasi lemak with 2 pounds here. I guess he's been earning a lot=.=

Besides, motivation from this cute guy in facebook =.-""

Kumaravel M Ganesan at 7:07am March 5

Think that you are going to be a CEO of a large corporation in future...

 

Chicken rice shop CEO can? =__________O""""

sweatt!! Hopefully this works.. >< amithaba...

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我还可以跟谁讲。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

2nd night in library..

Is a very boring night today... no body here..

How many sleepless night do I need to face this month...

Huhhh... hate being alone. At times.............

Library.. my new friend....

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When u overnight in the library..

When u overnight in the library.. you will eventually saw many weird n funny things happen... as if it was all arranged to entertain you so that you will not fall asleep...

First.. we saw many handsome.. hohohohoho.. this is not the main point.

Then.. when we thought no one will come in anymore as it was alrd late night.. here comes a group of black guys, as if they wanted to whack u up or smtg..

Of coz, usually , in this kind of gang, there will definitely be a nerd in there. we saw the nerd with.. super oily hair,estimated he had not taken his shower for 1 month=.= and sk even asked me whether i need some oil for cooking=.= wt....

2am in the morning and this is what happen that makes me decided to start blogging.. hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah...

that black macho wannabe guy.. starts walking around.. and then.. when we look at him.. he looked around as if there were winds and he is so handsome, shooting an advertisement for sunsilk and then "BANG"! he knock on the shelf!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH he quickly look back to see whether anyone saw that embarrassing moment.. but.. sorry.. ALL OF US 8 eyes, were looking at him. XDDDDD

sk n me hold our self back from laughing as we don’t know him.. but the moment his friend start laughing loudly, we can't stop laughing!!! and sk even laugh till her tears drop=.= what the.. bad gal...

ok la.. back to assign.. sighhh...

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can i overcome all these?

can i continue my masters?

can i go back asap?

can i handle what i should handle now?

=.= can i stop can i here and get my ass to work on that assignment?

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I just wanna say I MISS YOU 7 lil peebol @@

Peebol who know me well know that I hardly say I miss you to other peebol...

was resting the whole day [due to a trip] . This weird feelings suddenly come over. 

I miss you guys so so so so so much! 

I don't know how much is that but i just feel like shouting out to you peebol...

7 lil peebol ... you know who u are? 

Assless hoor ,boobie ying and MD za bo...I miss you guys the most.. T.T

then i miss banana, mighty wall, fire chicken king and my idiot 2nd sis....

sigh... I miss you , i miss you , i miss you , i miss you, i miss you , i miss you and i miss you...

7 i miss you.. sighh... how good if u guys are around me... 

I wish i could celebrate assless hoor's bday.. he claim that no body wants to celebrate for him... 

I curse those peebol who takes him for granted. Think with ur ass when he squeeze him brain doing things for you guys..cihhh ciiip ahh...

assless hoor.. ^^ u are getting old d.. ahazz

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回到来不知不觉已经有3个星期了。。。
一切。。都不一样了。。
不能接受变化。。也只好把自己封锁起来。。
与世隔绝。。。免得犯贱的让自己一直被伤害。。
虽然说逃避是白痴的。。
但至少逃避时，时间可以让人慢慢忘掉一些事情。。
所庆幸的是。。我知道在10458KM 的地方。。一直有几位我可以相信的人。。。
想到这里。。也感到满足了吧。。
不要想了。。加油吧。。不开心。。日子还是要过下去。。！！
加油!!

If I die, I die of assignmentss

Doing out a schedule and I found this---> Due Dates

26 Feb - Strategic Management

12 Mar - Managing Change

18 Mar - DBK [ literature review paper @6k words w-out reflective]

30 Mar- DBK Learning Journal

2 Apr - Organisation analysis assign + learning journal.

 

the gap between one to one assignment is --> 3 to 12 days

best part is the weightage for these assigns is from 50 - 60% of whole coursework. great=.=yay~~~~!! =.=

can I overcome this. I hope I can... GOSHHHH!!

I suddenly realise that outside is really scary. Politics are everywhere. My room is my comfort zone now. I feel secure in my room. Very secure. But the minutes I'm out, I'm afraid that my words will hurt people. Same time, I'm afraid of being hurt. Memories on year 2008 isn't that good. Pain is still there when I tries to flashback. Can people just give a little bit of mercy, at least, do not stab so hard into the heart. It's already full with scar. I ain't emo now. Really. =) cuz i get to know that there are still few person that I can totally trust and they've tried their best to pamper me. Thanks. I do not need more new peeps that I don't understand at all and might hurt me anymore. Do not need at all. Especially when the truth behind is all ugly stuff like Joanna song :" I am paranoid of these kind of things, that you are using me" lol... good sentence though.

 

Me and ms za bo lately realise that we shall actually protect ourself. cuz people out there are really too unpredictable. ngiakss

10.17pm and while I was browsing some picture in secondary. Gosh=.= I should not have miss this person=.= and I should seriously start dieting=.= gosh... start start start!! cut cut cut! =.= ugly till dunno which country.. =.= hate

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UK

Reach UK again at last.. after 16 hours flight , 2 hours transit waiting hours, 1 hour waiting for coach, 2 hours coach, and finally 30 minutes taxi..=.=

During these hours, I've done all these:

1) Watched Dexter, Powerpuff girls, Samurai Jack, National Geog, Monster Inc, High School musical,  27 dresses, and open season 2.

2)Sleep for 5 hours in fligh

3) Stare at the disgusting food

4) Go into the lavatory and start plucking my white hairs (this is the most insane stuff i think)

5) Stare at the quite handsome air waiter (dunno what is it call) for very very very long=.=

6) Star at the stars out there.

7) Looking at the sign on the emergency exit , afraid that anything happen=.=

8) Massage my ass ..lol..

and then at last i reach=.=

my room is in a super mess! and i've cleaned it...

I miss evthing n ev body in Msia! ><

 

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R.I.P TO AH POH POH

Suddenly, many images flashed back in my mind. pictures where she asked me n hoor, whether we want coffee, crackers, asking us to have our meal 10 times a day, afraid that we are hungry.

Happy when she saw us, and body that been tortured by the cruel cancer cells. they took her. They took her away from us when Im in Taiwan, no body told me as they wouldn't want us to be sad over there.

Went over to her place just now. Her daughter are trash. Pure trash...

I am not allowed to go for the burning ceremony. Hatred slowly grow in my heart, though I know it is not a correct action. I can't control that feeling. The feelings on a person who is so self centred and act like a perfect faker. This situation will then put me into a dilemma.

I am back, for my friends, I leave again, because I hate facing this kind of atmosphere.

-Running out from this depress feelings-

** just few hours is more than enough.

I am happy that I am back from Taiwan..but yet, I realise that I have to face something more cruel .. One more week and I am gonna go back to the place where I hardly see my dearest friends and family.. goshhh...but no worries i guess.. cuz.. with MAXIS~~ bla bla bla=.= commercial time.. hahahahahah...

Knew few new friends from Taiwan.. good one...

Bought loads n loads of things...

toys, jackets, hoodies, bags, sneakers, souvenirs.. etc.. etc..=.=

Have to start packing .. again=.= I HATE packing=.= ishhhh... luckily, I've got... the magic word**.... ^^

 

** KAKAKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK~~~

 

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I am happy today.. ^^ A satisfying day indeed...It's been long time since the last time I go out with few buddies and watch a movie.. walk around.. buy things and had dinner without any worries in mind.. ^^ Love it...

Thanks for accompanying me.. ^^

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Dunno why.. just love this song so much...Feel that the lyrics is so easy going.. DIff story everyday.. Diff pple in your life~~

作词：非非 作曲：非非
老歌和相片里的昨天
唇膏和镜子里的今天
鲜花将凋谢的明天
曾经期待的每一天
轻快和放纵的晴天
沉默和徘徊的阴天
躲藏和静止的雨天
已经遗忘的每一天
喔 每天 每天
哪天值得纪念
哪个人不能挽回
哪天曾经许愿
哪个人只能
梦里再相见
有些人留下
有些人离开
所有人都变老的每天
有些事还在上演
有些成为永远
摸索未来的每天
有些人流浪
有些人承担
所有人都孤单的每天
有些错不明白
有些爱不重来
不想反悔的每天Oh~每天 Oh~每天

-范玮琪-

[每天的每天]

At last my father brought me to my beloved Osaka today ^^

So happy to see Uncle Ben.. ^^ maaahhahahaha... and he pakat with me by keeping secret for me from my mom. A secret that I always tapao black dragon ^^ mahahahahahha... He is kind enough to make my fav unagi onigiri ^^ and personally made a superb sushi to us. mahahhahaah...

<-- from Uncle Ben.. XD

Satisfied satisfied..

Also, i love kids*  [* kids when they are not crying]

one good thing about kids, dun hv such thing as girl cant touch guys or smtg.. ^^ so cute ..

Lastly, i love theseeeeeee but is not mine.. T.T the only advantage of getting married=.=

 

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